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Insanity, part 2 by
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“So how’s our patient this morning?” “Daniel? The General asked you a question.” “Daniel?” I say again, giving him a slight squeeze. “I think the General would like to talk to you.” For a couple of seconds I think he’s going to ignore me, then his arms tighten a little around my neck, and I feel him move his arm and turn his head. He’s still got his cheek pressed against my chest and though I can’t see what Hammond is seeing, I imagine it’s something of a shock for the General. Without glasses to camouflage them, this manifestation of Daniel is
nothing but eyes. “Good morning, Daniel. Did you sleep well last night?” “The Colonel has asked if they can go home, sir. I don’t
believe there’s any reason to keep Daniel here for now. We
can get information to them just as quickly at home as here. As
long as it’s all right with you, I can release him into Colonel
O’Neill’s care.” Janet smiles at Daniel, shoving her hands in her pockets, probably to
keep from petting him. He is irresistibly cute. Even Hammond
is smitten already. But then, Daniel was a favorite of his before
this happened. Though one arm still anchors him, Daniel’s unclasped his hands
from around my neck and turns to watch the General leave. I wonder if she wants to discuss something privately with Hammond. If
it’s something I need to know, she’ll get me the information
- all in due time. Teal’c snags the rolling bed tray with his foot and scoots it
over in front of Daniel and me. The arm around my neck squeezes tight again, though his gaze is now
fastened on the stack of pancakes dripping syrup. “The whole shy bit with Hammond.” I’m surprised to see his ears pink up. I turn his chin up to look at his face. “Why would talking to Hammond embarrass you?” Okay, I have to hand it to him, usually I’m not this dense, I am just playing with him. This morning I haven’t got a clue. When he doh’s me, I just shake my head. “I’m not tuning in here, Daniel.” “Ohhhh.” Okay, proportionate response here, O’Neill. “Daniel,” I say carefully, “this time will be different.” I’m good at setting boundaries. Being 2IC of the base doesn’t
hurt when it comes to enforcing them. Which is exactly why he knows he’s right. “All right, that’s something we’ll have to work on. Don’t slime me,” I warn, only half in jest. Daniel reaches immediately for the cup of coffee Carter sets down next to his plate of pancakes. It’s in a real cup, not styrofoam, mind you, so ya gotta know somebody in the kitchen is already aware of what’s going on, and I get a good look at it as it’s headed north. I don’t know if he’s got his eyes closed or what, but I’m waiting. “Daniel,” I warn, in my not-to-be-messed-with Colonel voice, just as he’s about to spew the entire contents of his mouth all over me and breakfast. “Don’t even think about it.” It works . . . this time. I feel him swallow and the cup plunks down on the tray table with a
thud. From the look he gets back, I’m guessing he must be giving Carter the suspicious look. “That’s not coffee,” he accuses. Which leaves the door wide open for bucking Janet’s orders in the future. And with that, Daniel Jackson will have to settle, because no one in
this room is bucking her orders today. Fortunately for me, he really is hungry, so he’s more interested in eating than pushing my buttons. I pick up my own fork, keeping an eye out for trouble. Teal’c’s
already halfway through his breakfast by the time I start on the eggs
and hash browns he brought me. Guess he’s decided it’s better than nothing. He’s got syrup on his face and hands already. How is it possible for a thirty-four-year-old to revert to six overnight? “Are you done?” He puts his fork down in the syrup without drawing a single hieroglyph.
Normally it’s his favorite way to pass the time while he’s
waiting for us to finish. Daniel’s never been big into the
eating thing, he eats because he has to, or because someone’s making
him. However, it’s useless given the amount of syrup he’s currently
sporting. He says this like he’s surprised. Which he probably is. Adult
Daniel, under normal circumstances, could hold twenty cups of coffee
before he had to use the facilities. Carter disappears again through the swinging doors and I glance over
at Teal’c. “T?” “Any chance you’d be willing to come home with us this morning? I
think we might need to move some furniture around to accommodate Daniel’s
changed stature. I could probably use a hand if you’re not
busy.” Teal’c leaves with the trays and I get up to go check on Daniel. I’m gonna kill him if I find him standing on the toilet again. “Daniel!” I bang on the door when I realize it’s locked this time. “Open up right now.” From the monumental quiet issuing from inside the bathroom, I know damn
well he’s up to something he’s not supposed to be. And
then the door unlocks and he’s looking up at me through the crack. I yelp as he drops down on his ass, on purpose I realize belatedly, to inspect his toe. “I’m bleeding,” the kid announces dramatically. And sure enough he is - copiously. I snatch him up off the floor, yelling for Frasier as I plop him down on the bed, trying to keep blood from dripping on the sheets. His foot in my hand is ludicrously small. I grab what looks like a washcloth off the night stand and wrap it around his foot. “Doc!” Where the hell is she? She was just in her office a few minutes
ago. “Ice would be good,” he offers. There’s not a tear in sight over this, though it’s got to
hurt like hell. He’s actually gashed his big toe, okay, his
tiny little big toe, which means the gash can hardly be significant,
but it’s still got to hurt. He leans forward to inspect it as well, bumping heads with Janet, who
pulls back with a frown. He looks up at her with those huge eyes and I can almost see her melting. Whatever she intended to say comes out as, “Sweetie, I need you
to sit up so I can see, please.” Frasier and I exchange surprised glances. Daniel never does what
he’s told, at least not until he’s analyzed it six ways to
Sunday, and only then if it’s convenient. Janet goes to the locked cupboard and pulls out supplies, including a syringe and vial, as well as gauze and iodine, all of which she sets out on the tray table. I sit back down on the edge of the bed with on of those fancy smancy pliable thing one of the nurses handed me that’s cold already. Daniel scoots around so he can lean back against me as Frasier works on his toe. He’s got his bottom lip between his teeth by the time she’s cleaned it and blown on the iodine to stop the sting. He pulls the foot into his lap and holds out his hand for the cold pack
as soon as she’s got a bandaid on it. “Thank you.” Not that he’s going to want to put a shoe on that toe any time
soon. Most of the stuff she’s brought looks practically new. Kids
outgrow clothes, but not shoes? “Where did this stuff come from?” he asks again, letting go of his ice pack with one hand to pick up one of the t-shirts. “I don’t think so.” He tosses it back before I get a good look at it, but it has some super hero on the front. I look up at Carter, suppressing a grin. Who the hell can afford to keep their six-year-old in Ralph Lauren jeans
on a military salary? Looks like they’ll fit though. I hold up a light blue oxford button down. All the t-shirts have
some super hero on them. The shirt obviously hasn’t seen much wear; I’m guessing
it was part of somebody’s holiday outfit. Charlie had a few
of those, worn once and outgrown before the next holiday. The button
holes are stiff still, as is the material of the shirt. He’s
having trouble getting the buttons through the button holes and when
he does get it done up, he’s missed one and has one button too
many at the bottom of the shirt. Daniel rotates his shoulders uncomfortably. He likes his clothes soft and well worn. I swear he takes new stuff home and washes it several times before he ever puts it on. The shirt’s a little big on him and Carter rolls back the cuffs
on the sleeves a couple times so he has hands again. “Can we go home now?” “Was there a reason you let him get dressed?” she inquires,
looking directly at me. “Oh no,” he sidles back against me again, shaking his head. “Not
going there.” “Carter,” I glance across at her as I haul Daniel back onto
my lap. “A little privacy would be good.” “Daniel, I know all of this is scary suddenly, okay? I understand
that. Do you understand it isn’t something you have much
control over right now?” She smiles, that heart stopping, tender smile she occasionally gave adult Daniel, only now it’s like ten times sappier. Okay, maybe only five times, but it’s damn sappy. She leans in to hug him too. “It will be over in ten seconds, okay?” She kisses the worry line between the eyebrows before she pulls back and looks up at me. “Can I hold him?” Apparently shots in the ass are much more traumatic at six than thirty-four. Janet rubs the back of his head, I rub his back, and eventually I feel him begin to relax again. “Ready to blow this joint, pal?” He nods against my neck. Grey? Forget grey, I’m gonna be white-haired by the time this is over, and that’s only if I haven’t snatched myself bald! I plunk him down on the counter, keeping a grip on his arms as I glare at him. He winces. Ouch - probably wasn’t comfortable for him at all, but maybe it will help make my point. “If you want something out of your reach, you need to ask for
it, Daniel.” Since he’s sitting on the counter, bare feet dangling three feet
above the floor, I’m not about to let go of him. He blinks, shrugs, and says, “Oh, I forgot.” I don’t bother to ask him to promise because I know he won’t, which just means he doesn’t get left in here alone anymore. “Have you got what you want now?” He takes off immediately, trotting to yet another bookcase where he deliberates for several minutes, touching the spines of half a dozen books before he pulls out one and comes back to the desk - which is a foot and a half lower than the counter and therefore just about chest height on him now - and shoves it into the backpack. “I think that’s everything I need from here. I might
have some stuff at home I need too.” We all keep a change of clothes in our lockers. If he doesn’t
have clean socks, I do, and he needs something on his feet, even if it’s
just socks. I know these floors are cold and it’s only in
the teens on the surface, he can’t go out barefoot. Definitely
going to have to make a stop at the mall, for underwear and shoes if
nothing else. Daniel’s refused to let me carry him, though he’s holding my hand. The elevator dings for ten and Hammond and I are chatting as we get off and Daniel swipes my card for the next set of elevators on the opposite side of the corridor. I feel him sway against me and look down as his hold on my hand mutates
to a death grip. I don’t feel a thing as I drop to my knees beside him. “THOR!” This has to be a nightmare, it absolutely can’t be happening. Frasier said he was fine. He was acting like he was fine. If there was anybody in the Mountain who didn’t know, they do now. Think, O’Neill, think! Get the heart beating again. I feel and hear ribs crack as I smack – at the last second – my open hand down on his chest. He’s little, O’Neill, think tiny! I could have caved his whole chest in if I’d caught him with the full force of my adult fist. No time to sweat it, just do it! Clear his airways, tilt his head back, breathe. Chest compressions. Think tiny, tiny! One, two, three, four, five, one, two, three, four, ten, one, two, three, four, fifteen. I hear Hammond on the hall phone behind me calling for a med team. Breathe. Chest compressions. One, two, three . . . And then there’s no Daniel Jackson under my hands and I’m
doing chest compressions in midair, only just catching myself before
I take a nosedive into the floor myself. I look around to find Carter and Teal’c looking back at us. Carter’s looking flabbergasted; Teal’c is standing as usual,
with his hands behind his back, looking for all the world like this kind
of thing happens to him every day. I put up a hand when Carter rushes in with questions. “I don’t know what. We’d just gotten off the
elevators at level ten and were waiting for the elevator to the surface
and he just . . . went down. No warning, no nothing. He said my
name and just crumpled. No pulse, no heartbeat. I broke
some ribs when I tried to get his heart started again.” Wonder if I’ll look as good as Teal’c does bald. Probably not. Ahhh, here comes our escort now. I’ve got nothing to keep my hands busy; no weapon to hang onto, no tools to be fidgeting with, nothing . . . which is not good since I want to strangle somebody here! Empty hands and a sorely pissed off covert ops Colonel don’t go together too well. Teal’c puts a large hand on my shoulder. Safeguarded? I remember wondering at the time if that was anything like be Scotchguarded. What? They safeguarded him like a piece of furniture? But hey, I’m not gonna argue if that means they’re on guardian
angel duty 24/7. I’d feel a hell of a lot better if I knew
the Asgard were watching out for him too. “If Dr. Jackson is all right, you may send me back to the SGC,” Hammond
states authoritatively. “Of course. Report to me as soon as you’re back, SG-1.” The General disappears in a stream of sparkling light. “He was dead. As in - heart not beating, no pulse, not breathing,
unexpectedly crumpled at my feet - dead. What happened?” “I had not realized he was quite so accident prone.” “He is not supposed to be awakening yet.” “I wish him to stay in this altered state for several more hours,
O’Neill. Please assure Daniel Jackson all will be well so
he will stop trying to surface.” “Yeah, right,” I say finally. “If he’s
unconscious, how the hell am I supposed to do that?” Now Thor just looks at me. “Alright, alright.” Cautiously I spread both palms against the glass and look over at Carter. “What did you do?” “Daniel,” I move my fingers over top of his impossibly small chest, “go back to sleep, or whatever it is you’re in. We’re all here. Carter, Teal’c and me, and we’re not going anywhere, okay?” And damn if I don’t see him relax and stop struggling. I can just about guarantee I’m gonna wish I had that kind of power over him when he’s awake sometime during the next week or two. It’s a very subdued Daniel that walks out with Thor several hours later. It seems apparent to me the Asgard told him something, but as usual, Daniel plays it close to the chest. He latches on to my hand and presses in to my side, but says nothing. I hunker down beside him, trying to ignore my twinging knees as I squat on them, at just about eye level with Daniel. “You okay?” I ask quietly, taking his hands between my own and rubbing gently. “Are you cold?” His hands are like ice, as are his feet when I put my hand around a very small ankle. He just looks at me, blinking owlishly. Carter slides up behind him and puts her arms around his shoulders. Daniel leans back with a sigh. “Daniel, are you okay?” she asks again. “Guess so,” he replies with a shrug. “Thor?” I raise an eyebrow. “He is fine, Colonel, though likely very fatigued.” Teal’c steps forward. “I will carry him this time, O’Neill.” He scoops Daniel up in one arm and I have to smile as Daniel lays his head down on Teal’c’s shoulder without the slightest self-consciousness. “It is likely Daniel Jackson will be extremely weary for a few days,” Thor offers, diplomatically. Read he’s going to sleep nearly around the clock for the next three days and scare the shit out of you, I realize after the fact. “This is a complication no one foresaw,” the little grey alien offers, tilting his head and his slanting eyes up in Daniel’s direction. “But he is fine, as I said. I will return you all to the SGC now.” “Wait!” I shoot a hand up. “Just wait. You
told us Daniel was being safeguarded, back on the Teprins planet. How?” “You do not need to worry, O’Neill.” “Yeah, well,” I suck in air, “I do, so why don’t you help relieve me of that worry by telling me what you meant.” “Daniel Jackson will grow again to adulthood, O’Neill, that is all I’m able to tell you. I will return you to the SGC now.” “But . . . oh, shit.” We’re standing in the boardroom. Hammond’s getting up from behind his desk, even though he’s on the phone. I can tell he’s cutting it short. Daniel’s asleep on Teal’c’s shoulder, drooling slightly, as Teal’c rubs his back. “Everything okay?” General Hammond asks quietly, in deference to the sleeping child. Again, I don’t realize until much later, we could have had a shouting match going on over his head and it wouldn’t have woken Daniel. “Yes, sir. As far as it goes, sir. The Asgard said they’ve put everything back the right way this time. Daniel is fine. Thor thinks he might be a little tired for the next few days is all.” “Dr. Frasier wants to see him again before you leave the mountain.” “Of course she does,” I sigh. “Teal’c, want me to take him?” “I will accompany you to the infirmary with Danieljackson, O’Neill. I believe he is sound asleep,” Teal’c rumbles. “I believe you’re right, T. Carter?” She checks her watch and sees we’ve spent the better part of the day in space again. “I’m going to go shut down my lab equipment, sir. Think I’m going to call it a night.” “Yeah, it’s been another day from hell, Carter. I totally understand.” “Do you still wish me to go home with you and Danieljackson, O’Neill?” “Ya know, T, I think when we’re done here, we’re gonna call it a night ourselves. We can move furniture tomorrow. No hurry, whenever you can make it.” “I’ll bring him out, sir.” “Yeah, that would be good.” “Sir,” I turn to the General. “Permission to take Daniel to the infirmary and then home when Doc’s finished with him.” “Granted, Colonel. You take care of our boy now.” “Yes, sir. I’ll do my best, sir.” * * *
Epilogue The official memo went to Washington today. It was militarily brief. Dr. Daniel Jackson, a civilian employee of Stargate Command, was killed in an accident on an off-world archeological dig. A memorial service will be held for Dr. Jackson at 2:00 p.m, on November 15th, at the SGC. I happen to know the official report went to Washington two days ago, with the official details of Daniel Jackson’s official death. Daniel gleefully participated in writing the damn thing and I must admit we did have a little fun at the brass’s expense. If we’d held memorial services for every time Daniel Jackson has died - well, let’s see - I think that would be at least one a year for as long as he’s been here. This will be the second time we’ve actually held a memorial for him. Daniel wants to go, though I’ve yet to tell him the President is planning to be there. He wants to write his own eulogy too, thinks it would be really cool. Anyway, the memorial is still a few days away, and while I probably will let him help write the eulogy, I don’t think I’m going to let him go to the memorial. He’s got enough macabre stuff he carries around inside his head already, he doesn’t need to add this on top of it. But we’ll see. He’s already proven extremely strong-willed. If he really wants to go, short of chaining him up in my office, I doubt I’ll be able to keep him away. I doubt Dr. Daniel Jackson has ever been thwarted when it comes to something he really wants. I have serious doubts he will ever be thwarted when it comes to something he seriously wants . . . except to be big again overnight. Guess we’ll just have to wait and see. ~*~ |
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